Isn’t that what we’re all truly after? Validation of one sort or another? Isn’t that why we’re all on this world wide web to show ourselves to all of the strangers of the planet. You don’t post things and hope no one sees them, right? We’re all just throwing our best out into the void of ones and zeros and hoping, hoping, hoping.
I’m not sure how many people can relate- a lot in my experiance, but i’ve recently found that having the validation of a few is almsot as good if not better than validation of a lot.
I’ve been posting my writing on AO3 for awhile, and recently hit a small vein of interaction within a fandom. I had never really felt such warmth so quickly before. Most of everything else I throw into the void isn’t so well recieved. (With few very rare exceptions)
But with my original project, I’ve tried to share it with at least 5 people and I’m sure a lot of you can relate to begging your friends and family to look at something you’ve spent hours on. Asking and bribing and begging only to be turned down. This keeps happening to me, has happened to me for years on so many different projects.
Something different happened though. I’ve actually had support from the get from one girl that I would do anything for. She’s been my soundboard and my support and has let me throw all my ideas at her feet and didn’t mind as I sorted through them in the dead of night-blowing her phone up with my absolute nonsense.
Recently I took a chance and asked another friend, “Hey, do you want to read my book?”
and you know what she said?
And you know what she did? She read it. She didn’t just read it but she loved it. She talks to me about it and talks to me about my characters. I know I can get annoying, I’ve been a broken record with her for days, but I just can’t get over how surreal it is to have support? To get support in the middle of a project? To have someone love your characters like you do? To make a character within 5 minutes and still have them be loved and not just because the person is your friend, but because they see your worth?
Don’t give up hope, my little loves. You’ll find your supporters sooner or later, and when you do…
When you do, nothing will ever be the same.